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Recently I have been reflecting on my life and how it seems to resemble the childhood game of Simon Says. In this game, there is a leader. The leader will speak commands to the followers, and if the leader says "Simon Says" before the command you are to follow. However, if Simon does not give the command, you are not to take any action. In my life, I am only to follow the commands from my Divine Self, who is my personal Simon.

Last fall I embodied my Divine Self at a physical level. All other aspects of myself have had to transform and move up to this level of consciousness and vibration. All action in my life only happens from this level of consciousness, which I call from "above". This aspect of myself of course, is allowed to see a greater expanse of life from an omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent perspective. Undoubtedly, I know that everything that is manifested from "above" will be bigger and better than anything I could dream up or manifest from a lower aspect of consciousness. So, the greatest challenge remains for my ego, which continues to try to use resistance as the greatest form of control. Surrender is the name of the game I need to play; often, on a daily and hourly basis.

The Course in Miracles has a portion of the workbook devoted to becoming a teacher of God. In this, it talks about learning to give up the valueless for the valuable. I feel I have been being tested in this for the last 5 years. I was guided to quit my teaching job. Subsequently, I was surprised to find out that rather manifesting my "successful" business immediately, I was entering "spiritual graduate school". I was learning lessons about trusting that the universe would provide for me, moment to moment. For each need that would arise, this higher Source would provide. Oftentimes this appeared in the form of a client, but the form or source was never known to me. I learned to trust and surrender at deeper and deeper levels. I never knew how my moment to moment needs would be met, but they always were.

Many of you have heard me share a bit about my inner planes and ordinary reality connection with a man halfway across the world. Recently my guidance informed me that we are going to become telepathic with each other, and that we are both being prepared for the level of purity this needs. I see this purification happening in many ways. As many of us have heard, as a species, we are returning to a state of connection with all living things, whereby we can telepathically communicate with each other, the plants and animals. This is already happening with some individuals.

The challenge with me and my inner/outer planes partner is that we are opposite in many ways. Our experiences, personalities, backgrounds, gifts, etc. come from opposite ends of the spectrum. At the same time, we also share many similarities. I have learned most of my spiritual lessons through this connection, as we have come to know each other and communicate on an almost daily basis via e-mail. This proves to be a challenge as well, because he speaks, writes, and understands English, but is not fluent. So, I write and he uses his discernment at an earthly level. I, in turn, have many inner planes experiences with him, which guide me and keep me growing.

Our Divine Selves have merged and this has allowed for an emotional connection which often fills in the blank spots, which our language and cultural differences cannot. I have been guided to love him unconditionally and expect nothing in return. My guidance let me know he is the time keeper and taskmaster in the relationship. We have work to do together, and will be partners. Lo and behold, this man was not aware of any of this himself, and of course, said, he would have to know this from within. It has been over 2 years, and though he suspects what I say is true, he cannot act until he knows from within, or from "above". He still does not know this.

I am beginning to see that what I was told, was interpreted by me to be a physical level manifestation, which may or may not be the case. Much of what we do together, is happening in a different dimension that the physical. Therefore, we already are partners, and doing our work together. Needless to say, there have been many lessons for both of us.

I am currently working on a book which will expand on these lessons further. Some of the biggest lessons for both of us, have been about trust, faith, love and surrender. Now as I am being prepared to reach the level of purity required to become telepathic with another human being, I am being challenged with some other very big lessons in surrender.

I have a dear friend who is a huge soul and lost everything in her life to learn some of the same spiritual lessons as I. With a heart full of love and compassion, this Divine part of myself, with no fear, offered to take out a loan for her so she could purchase a car, with the understanding she would pay it off. This was a decision made from the greatest part of me. When the first payment came due, and it was late, all kinds of warning bells and sirens began shrieking within. Mind you, I am manifesting my needs on a daily basis. I am not wealthy by any means. I was able to transmute much fear as my guidance assured me my decision was made from a very high place, and that I would be taken care of by my divinity. I began to see this was just a deep release of fear, taking me to a deeper level of surrender in my life.

As the second payment came due, and again it was late, I got angry. I was feeling used and abused. All of the inner struggle about wanting to be out of this situation came to the surface. My ego was wanting control over my own bank account and finances. Again, I was reminded and assured that I will be fine and I am to trust.

Finally, I have "remembered" that there are no mistakes, and that this is a two way lesson for each of us. My lesson is to surrender and trust that my Divine Self will take care of me, protect me from harm, and in the end, bring me greater gifts than I can imagine. In the sharing of my personal resources, my own will be multiplied exponentially.

Most recently, I asked my Divine Self, if it is going to support me in living at the lake this summer. Sure enough, within a few days, I received in the mail, exactly the amount of money I need to pay for the phone and internet hook-up to do so.

I share these stories, because this is where we are heading, folks. Deeper and deeper surrender. Let Go, Let God. I am sharing all that I have, from the depths of my heart, and this in return will assure my own abundance. My ego is being challenged to release the need for control over all areas of my life. For those astrologers out there, transiting Pluto is conjuncting my natal Venus, which is about transforming the way I love, and what I value. More and more, I am seeing my true values lie in the spiritual world, and not the material. As Jesus said, "lay up your treasures in Heaven."

This resistance is the ego, and we all experience it in one form or another. It will bring our greatest joy, however, to say "Yes!" to life and all that it brings to us. For truly, when we are in the flow, life is only bringing us the greatest it has to offer in each moment. Our task is to refrain from judgment (which comes from the ego) and open to receive all of the bounty that is ours for the receiving. "My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep. The more I give thee, the more I have, for both are infinite." William Shakespeare.

So, as you play your personal game of Simon Says, remember that on a spiritual path, the more we surrender, the greater the rewards. We are letting go of the lesser for the greater. I have had many experiences to let me know that this is true. The higher we go, the greater the surrender, but truly, it is a mere formality to release the lesser thereby opening to receive the greater.

Well, dear ones, we have finally entered the month of June. With the summer solstice in the Northern latitudes (winter in the Southern hemisphere), a new world of growth opens and expands for each of us. This new world will be miracle filled if we are open to the higher aspects of our being. This is the time we have been waiting for.....and we are the ones we have been waiting for.

Following the solstice on the 21st, will be the New Moon in Cancer on the 22nd. This is the time to nourish and protect, support and sustain the foundation for our new projects birthed. With Venus and Mars conjunct, we are learning to balance our feminine and masculine sides, as well as balancing the power for men and women worldwide. We are expanding our perspectives, learning to see from a multiple lens, depending on the level of multi-dimensionality we view it from. Open to receive these greater thoughts and ideas from your highest self. Remember, "How you perceive is what you believe. How you perceive is what you'll achieve" Yvonne Oswald. As July comes round, we will be entering a new arena for play, as the eclipses change signs of the zodiac. Our new vistas for growth and play will come in on these energy shifts.

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- Hope
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- Faith and Courage in Changing Times
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- Simon Says
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